Halloween

So, today is Halloween.
Its 5:40pm, and Im sitting at home, in leggings and an oversized sweater, with the news on the television next to me, typing this. Most of my friends are dressed up, at a party, on their way to a party, or at least going to a party pretty soon. They are at least going trick or treating with their younger siblings. Me, being a 14 year old only child, I have no sibling to trick or treat with. So, instead, Im the one handing out candy to kids.
I wanted to go to some sort of party. I wanted to at least hang out with my friends, or trick or treat with them, even if weŕe conisdered ẗoo old¨ (which, in my opinion, is bullshit), but nothing ever happened. I have very few friends, and by the the time that I remembered that I should probably do something on Halloween, I figured that everyone had already made plans, so I didnt even bother to ask my friends.
Now, even though I sound like Im complaining, Im not really. I do feel kind of pathetic sitting here at home, but honestly, Im an introvert, and a huge homebody, who would, at most time, honestly rather stay at home. I went to homecoming last Friday, which was supposed to Halloween themed, but really it was just a hug mosh pit of sweaty teens grinding against each other. And while it was fun at first, I soon got sick of it. But I kept on dancing, and just pretended like I was having fun, even if my feet hurt and I really just wanted to go home. In my mind, thats enough socializing for one month. With this attitude, Im never gonna get a boyfriend.
Speaking of which, Ive never had a boyfriend (or a girlfriend) and I literally feel like Ím the only one whos never had one. And I know, Im not actually the only one, but I sure as hell feel like I am. Im just praying to have had my first kiss before I graduate high school.
Anyway, Ill get in to that some other time.
Good night my loves,
Mercy