So, today is Halloween.
Its 5:40pm, and Im sitting at home, in leggings and an oversized sweater, with the news on the television next to me, typing this. Most of my friends are dressed up, at a party, on their way to a party, or at least going to a party pretty soon. They are at least going trick or treating with their younger siblings. Me, being a 14 year old only child, I have no sibling to trick or treat with. So, instead, Im the one handing out candy to kids.
I wanted to go to some sort of party. I wanted to at least hang out with my friends, or trick or treat with them, even if weŕe conisdered ẗoo old¨ (which, in my opinion, is bullshit), but nothing ever happened. I have very few friends, and by the the time that I remembered that I should probably do something on Halloween, I figured that everyone had already made plans, so I didnt even bother to ask my friends.
Now, even though I sound like Im complaining, Im not really. I do feel kind of pathetic sitting here at home, but honestly, Im an introvert, and a huge homebody, who would, at most time, honestly rather stay at home. I went to homecoming last Friday, which was supposed to Halloween themed, but really it was just a hug mosh pit of sweaty teens grinding against each other. And while it was fun at first, I soon got sick of it. But I kept on dancing, and just pretended like I was having fun, even if my feet hurt and I really just wanted to go home. In my mind, thats enough socializing for one month. With this attitude, Im never gonna get a boyfriend.
Speaking of which, Ive never had a boyfriend (or a girlfriend) and I literally feel like Ím the only one whos never had one. And I know, Im not actually the only one, but I sure as hell feel like I am. Im just praying to have had my first kiss before I graduate high school.
Anyway, Ill get in to that some other time.
Good night my loves,
Mercy
Friday, October 31, 2014
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Complaining
Hello my loves, I am back.
It's 8pm, and my dad is already asleep, which astounds me.
So, tomorrow is Halloween, and I'm doing nothing. I will literally be sitting at home, probably watching the Simpsons Halloween special. That's how lame I am. This is the first Halloween that I've had nothing to do. Every Halloween before this I've at least gone to something, but not this year. I feel like this embodies my social life so far this school year: nonexistent.
I went to the same school from 2nd grade to 8th grade, with pretty much the same 25 people the entire time, and this year I was thrown in to a gigantic high school, only knowing two people. I, in nature, am an introvert, and suck at making friends. Therefore, I pretty much haven't made any friends. I already knew two people, so the only "friends" I have are my two friends friends, and they're not exactly my friends, they're more just my acquaintances.
One thing that sucks is how damn expensive hair die is. Currently my hair is a faded blue, with noticeable brown roots. It started out a gorgeous, vibrant, deep blue but it's just gone downhill from there. I love having different colored hair, but its hard to maintain, and I don't think my parents would be willing to die it another color, because I suck at saving money so I can't afford to pay for it myself, and my current color is getting gross fast, so I've either got to use their money to die it back to brown, and keep it that way, or use my nonexistent money to die it another color. I would save money and die it with my own money, but there just isn't enough time, because I need to die it soon. And I'm not ready to die it back brown. I'm known as the "blue haired girl" at my school (even though there's other kids with blue hair, I don't know how I was the one fortunate enough to get that title) and it's almost like its a part of my identity now. If I die it back brown, I'm just gonna blend in to the crowd. I'm very unnoticeable in general, so I need to have something, other than my horrendous face, for people to identify my by.
So yes, those are my dilemmas of the day.
I hope you enjoy this little page of me whining about my life, now go have a happy day and a Happy Halloween.
Mercy
It's 8pm, and my dad is already asleep, which astounds me.
So, tomorrow is Halloween, and I'm doing nothing. I will literally be sitting at home, probably watching the Simpsons Halloween special. That's how lame I am. This is the first Halloween that I've had nothing to do. Every Halloween before this I've at least gone to something, but not this year. I feel like this embodies my social life so far this school year: nonexistent.
I went to the same school from 2nd grade to 8th grade, with pretty much the same 25 people the entire time, and this year I was thrown in to a gigantic high school, only knowing two people. I, in nature, am an introvert, and suck at making friends. Therefore, I pretty much haven't made any friends. I already knew two people, so the only "friends" I have are my two friends friends, and they're not exactly my friends, they're more just my acquaintances.
One thing that sucks is how damn expensive hair die is. Currently my hair is a faded blue, with noticeable brown roots. It started out a gorgeous, vibrant, deep blue but it's just gone downhill from there. I love having different colored hair, but its hard to maintain, and I don't think my parents would be willing to die it another color, because I suck at saving money so I can't afford to pay for it myself, and my current color is getting gross fast, so I've either got to use their money to die it back to brown, and keep it that way, or use my nonexistent money to die it another color. I would save money and die it with my own money, but there just isn't enough time, because I need to die it soon. And I'm not ready to die it back brown. I'm known as the "blue haired girl" at my school (even though there's other kids with blue hair, I don't know how I was the one fortunate enough to get that title) and it's almost like its a part of my identity now. If I die it back brown, I'm just gonna blend in to the crowd. I'm very unnoticeable in general, so I need to have something, other than my horrendous face, for people to identify my by.
So yes, those are my dilemmas of the day.
I hope you enjoy this little page of me whining about my life, now go have a happy day and a Happy Halloween.
Mercy
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Welcome To My Blog
Hello everyone! My name is Mercy Calla. I am a 14 year old freshman in High School, and this blog was a creation of a bored sick day. This is a very spontaneous thing, so I honestly have no idea what I'll be putting on to this blog, but I hope that I, and you, have fun along the way. I hope everyone is having an amazing amazing day/night, and I'll see you in my next blog post, whatever that may be.
Mercy
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